Hi Tooling..and Welcome to SR!!!
I spent a good 20 something years drinking...(amazing how time flies) and that was all I knew...drinking.... drinking on the weekends....drinking on vacations....drinking just to drink..it consumed me....and for along time I really did think I was having fun....and that I didn't have a drinking problem..although everyone who spent enough time around me ... knew I did....I finally surrendered on January 25,2010....after I was arrested for a DUI...I said to myself..enough is enough...I'm an alcoholic.."normal" drinkers don't get DUI's!!! I was at my lowest point...I do however believe it was a blessing for me.....I am living a sober life and loving it!! There are challenges along the way...but that is life....and it's wonderful to live life without reaching for that bottle!!
Wishing you the very best in your recovery!!