hi there
Hi all. I guess I am struggling like all of you people. I noticed some here have kicked it while others just keep drinking. I hope I am one of the ones that kicks it out the door.
The problem for me is it's a love hate relationship. I believe it makes me a better person but as it progresses through the evening I being a stupid slob, bad mouthed drunken pig that hates himself. The problem arises from not being too happy at anytime in my life growing up. Yeah I had some happy times but I think more bad times than better times. When I get drunk it erases all of this.
So my problem is I have little willpower to stop. I try to manufacture reasons to stop but they always fail. For almost 10 years now I have drank pretty hard. The longest no drink spree was 3 months.
I haven't drank since Sunday, but the weekend is coming and I do love to drink on these days. Maybe I can talk here some and let it out rather than drink.
Nice to meet you all, and thanks.