Hi price,
I could have written this post 40 years ago & again several times since then.
I would let the losses & heartbreak build up inside me until I was ready to explode. I quit my medications so I could drink every day after work.
It took a long time to quit denying I needed help but I finally went to the local Mental Health Clinic & got help for my Depression/Anxity, & Alcoholism.
I wanted to be sober more than anything in the world & just for myself. I started AA Meetings & had Counseling for my Depression/Anxiety.
It worked for me this time & is still working. I use the Serenity Prayer more than once or twice a day to help others with my prayers when they are going through hard times, as well as myself. :day6
kelsh