I guess I have those fears..., but in the end the fear of what alcohol was doing to me and my health became stronger.
I guess we need to find new ways to make life fun. It will probably be a while until I can be comfortable around people who drink though. Maybe being around the kind of social activities where people drink heavily is over for me. Only time will tell what I can handle, but sobriety comes first now.
Good luck and stick around!