hi todayistheday - glad you're here! I would always start out determined to only drink a certain amount, too. But I always wanted just one more glass. After that, then just one more wouldn't hurt. Etc. etc.......
The hangovers kept getting worse and I was spending mornings in bed wishing I didn't have to get up that day at all. Once I felt better, I figured maybe just a couple of glasses of wine wouldn't hurt. And I was off again.
Sobriety has to be #1 now. Every time you make it through a craving, it has less power the next time. Don't think about never drinking again. Just do it for today. The good news is you already have some tools from going to AA in the past and now you have us at SR! :day6 Hang in there!