Welcome, glad to meet you, wish it was under better circumstances.
It might help if you break it all down in simplier terms, answer these questions:
What are you accomplishing by talking to him while drunk?
Do you understand that he is in active addiction?
Do you understand that there is no cure for alcoholism?
Do you understand that you are codependent?
What are your bonderies?
Can you enforce your bounderies?
Are you ready to marry an alcoholic?
And, if so, why?
Don't just sit back and do nothing, keep posting, keep reading others posts, and, get on the recovery train, go to meetings.
My Best,
Dolly