Hey Benjamin
Yea, been there... early sobriety absolutely sucks for some of us. My experience is a little different than yours, I was not bodily sick... but I was "forced" to stop drinking... before I hit a significant bottom... Home, wife, kids, job... Still had 'em... Gratitude for the "opportunity" to recover was slow in coming
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Depression was part of my experience as well. Sometimes, it still is.
Perhaps seek outside help for your depression. And... What do you mean "involved" in AA... are you going to meetings and working the steps, for real, with a sponsor? I found that a good fourth and fifth step really freed my soul of the resentment I had surrounding my circumstance, though I often need to take inventory still.
Keep posting