Thank you Dee74; I did realize that I need to have support, and I appreciate your helpful comments. I had tried AA in the past, several times, and it just didn't work for me, and that's maybe my fault. Sitting for an hour in the evening talking about alcohol seemed to make me want to drink even more, and then I'd pass all the stores with alcohol on the way home. So I'm trying to turn to others online..thank you again