Hi Almay, sorry to hear, i really think you should also approach your partner and ask him to support your wish, not to drink, if you really wanted it deep down, you would not pick up a drink, it is not whats on the outside that counts, its the beauty within you, that needs to come out and be alive again, you are wasting away, GOD has given us so much, HE wants you to experience this abundant life for yourself, take HIS hand and go forward, ''HE hems you in - behind and before'' HE goes wherever you go and will protect you. Be Strong - SAY NO!