Good morning all. Another unsucessful night. I didnt drink the usual bottle and a half of wine, but I still drank a bottle. Today I have felt better but I have felt worse. I feel like I am never going to do this. I look in the mirror and see an underweight yet bloated face (didnt realise it was possible to be both, but it is), dull eyes with a yellow tinge, and when I smile I cannot stop my bottom lip from wobbling. My hair which used to be thick and long is now fine and alot shorter despite not having it cut - this is probably a combination of booze and lack of food. I am sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. The only time I feel there is any hope is when I see your words of encouragement and read your brave stories.
I have printed off this whole thread and tucked it in my purse. Everywhere I go today when i feel weak and tempted, I am going to read this over and over to remind myself you are all there.xx