(((triegger))) Tommorow is another day for you to start again.My prayers are with you.I know personally how much sufferering going back to the bottle brings.Many of us chase the idea that we can have one drink or drink like *normal* people to the gates of insanity or death.Bear in mind that this is a proggresive fatal disease that never gets better only worse.Perhaps a stay at an inpatient program would be of benefit.There you will learn about alcoholism,be detoxed safely and be around others who are going thru the same thing.You haveto surrender to win..Trish
prayers to you.