Had a great evening tonight.
Family and laughter and not even any desire or compulsion to drink alcohol. There was alcohol asll around me and pints of beer next to me. But absolutely no feeling whatsoever. Other than a gratitude in being where I am at in sobriety.
Man I feel free. Lots of questions about my sobriety and 'new life' and it is so great portraying the man that I deserve to portray. Rather than a drunk getting more and more desperate and into the intoxicated addicitive mind that i used to get into when drinking before.
I had laughter and reserved comedy rather than forced over the top chemical laughter. I left with self-respect, dignity and acknowledging that yes I f*cked up the last 6 years but I don't regret them and I am happy with where I am on my journey of life now.
So grateful to be sober tonight and so grateful to be a recovering alcoholic. I truly mean that.
Peace and Love x