Hey everyone. Day one again. I feel really ashamed, did some stupid stuff last night that I have to confess to my husband this evening. Not really looking forward to that.
I've been thinking today about how I NEED to change. I really can't control my drinking. So, obviously this solo white knuckle quitting isn't working. What do I need to do to find accountability? Go to a meeting? See a councilor? Tell my husband? Probably all three of these things. I'll start tonight by really talking to my husband about my alcoholism. I can see a councilor for free at school which is really nice. AA seems really scary and I'm nervous to just go alone.
I can't live like this anymore. I feel horrible about everything.