(((Danielle))) you sound like a pretty secure gal to me, you're honesty comes through and through, remorse, well that comes with this lovely disease we've been blessed with. No point in ripping yourself apart with it, just work harder on figuring this out, and do whatever takes to help yourself.
I tell you if I get to do this game again, and if by chance I'm in the alkie line up, I'm gonna jump real fast out of it, and grab you all and pull me over to a better place. WHAT WERE WE THINKING. :laugh2:
All I can tell you is the sooner you get back on track the better, yepper it's progressive beyond belief, and the longer you continue the harder it will be to stop, it turns into one h3ll of a job. I know what hard work is all about, but lordy this job, it's never ending, but we both know the rewards of the FREEDOM of it.
Here I go again! Honestly...I'm pretty tired of this game. I don't want to play anymore. So, I forefit.
You don't have to play it anymore 
Sending you my love, extra hugs, and lots of prayers Danielle.....Denise