I'm so sorry traderjane. Laura I feel for you I really do. I don't want to leave but I feel like this site is making me feel worse about myself than I can afford to while trying to get sober. I try to say goodbye and apart from you, all I get is 'sorry you couldn't find what you want here'. It's not good enough for me. I hope we can keep in touch hun xoxo we sound very alike and it would be good to talk more