Good to hear from you Danielle.
I am sorry you do not feel comfortable at an AA meeting but if you keep looking I am sure you can find one that suits you.Just remember to stay openminded.
I know this upcoming weekend may be hard for you but when everything we know about recovery doesn't seem to be working sometimes the only thing we can do is hang on with the cold hard determination to NOT DRINK NO MATTER WHAT.
You will get through this.Keep in touch.