It's definately hard in the begining , but what I always tell myself that I don't want to ruin all the hard work that i've already put in. It sucked the first time around and I certainly don't want to do it again. You will start to feel better. So just remember you've already come so far and put so much work in, another drink will just create another cycle whereas keeping sober will eventually pay off big time by taking you to where you really want to be. Good luck! You will start to feel better, hang in there!!!