I think you're doing great. We all have setbacks, and lots of times holidays knock us around a bit. Harriet Lerner has some great books on dealing with family of origin issues and lingering trauma. You might try to find "The Dance of Anger"
Her books aren't new, so can probably be found really cheap.
Might give you something to chew on till you can start up therapy again.
Now, what was that nice thing you were going to do for Transform today?
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