ginger, as sailorjohn asked me once:
"if he came back would you trust him?"
he can come back and run a marathon.
then celebrate with a beer. or two. or 5 or 6 on a Tuesday afternoon. or the rest of the weekend. or the rest of his life.
so even if you were "together" NOPE, in reality it would just be the DRINK lingering for whenever he feels like it. For whenever he wants to feel important, to feel someone gives a damn.
And he told me that he had been drinking more in the hopes of driving me away, that I'd break up with him first.
What an incredibly hurtful comment. NO SIREE, YOU HAVE BEEN DRINKING BECAUSE YOU, YOU, ARE A HEAVY DRINKER, AT BEST. AND a coward.
Sorry. I am angry today. This is when one learns to remember the gut feeling and what we saw, heared and experienced ourselves, even when the rest of the world is in denial. This is a very, very important tool to have in life. To trust oneself. An alcoholic is like Self Trust bootcamp. Otherwise you can go crazy wondering WTF is true, its insane.