Thanks for the support. Kjell, the frustrating thing is that I don't have a plan.
I am at work suffering from shaking and overwhelming nausea. The last time I kept drinking because that was the only way I knew to stave it off. The nausea is the worst part. I can't stop throwing up.
I'm so afraid to tell my sponsor. She went to rehab and never relapsed. So why am I so defective? Why can't I just get it? I also can't tell my boyfriend because last time I relapsed he got really angry with me for leaning on him too hard, and his grandmother is extremely ill so I don't want to burden him with more. But I feel so alone.
I have a meeting tonight. Hopefully that will help my resolve. Thanks to all of you for being there.
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