Just drank again -- ugh
Well, I'm back on Day 1.
I'm sorry for letting down this community and for harming my body yet again.
Last night I had the overwhelming sensation of what I call "squeezebox heart" -- unbearable anxiety and tightness in the chest. The only way I know how to deal with it is to drink, so that's what I did.
What's most troubling to me is that I didn't call my sponsor before I drank, I didn't even try to go to a meeting, because I didn't want to be talked out of it -- I just wanted the wine.
I'm so angry with myself. I'm sorry to all of you.
GG