How did drinking make me feel? wonderfully relaxed until i could no longer control my intake.....I went from 2 glasses of wine to a whole bottle, to 8-10 glasses a night...for 20-25 years give or take....I consistently felt like sh*% every morning the last year....I used wine to solve the problems that never went away....I like being drunk more than I was sober...my physical health deteriorated rapidly in the past year, it was alarming, I was miserably depressed and I drank to relieve the depression, but it made it 10X worse....I hid in my house from Friday until Monday and then 1/2 the time I never even made it to work.
I never want to be there again...looking back, it's amazing that I didn't kill myself off.