Ah yes, the whole affair thing was what nearly kilt me, I swear. It madly pushed my abandonment buttons. I remember crying so hard at times that I threw up. It was awful, the betrayal. I stayed stuck in it too. I talked about it to strangers.
But from the beginning, when I found out about her, I knew I had to focus on myself. Knew I had to take myself out of the victim role and start figuring out how to live on my own. How to be self sufficient.
It hurt my self worth, my self value and it still irks me today. It makes me feel not good enough and so irreplaceable.
I feel like a broken record but one fo the best things I did was let hte poeple who love me do so.