lulu great thread!! thanks a lot!! you are becoming much wiser.
Yes to remember they always had many choices and didn't give a damn..hurts, but after the hurt it is very freeing. Because it was their decision, it is who they are, the reason why we chose to go away.
Today I passed XABF and his usual friends and it was funny because I was walking on the corridor towards my place. On the far end there was a really nice friend also involved in self growth stuff, a quite happy/healthy person and we walked towards each other until we hugged! XABF +friends were just noise in the background.
It was fun because before I went -not walking but running- towards XABF and all kinds of sad and toxic ppl and situations and I ignored friends and family all that time. Now that I reconnect with them I feel much better... I feel the real me.
I see Positive changes coming up for you
a great visualization is to imagine a HUGE luxurious room full of gifts of all colors sizes and shapes and imagine that is what HP has in store for you! believe it, its true.