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Old 06-14-2010, 09:59 AM
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lulu1974
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Originally Posted by wanting View Post
Congratulations Lulu! I echo the sentiments of Transform, as I too also faced my deepest fears of rejection and abandonment and didn't die. I also felt free after a while, knowing that what I feared the most really wasn't that bad. In fact, it made me a billion times stronger and way more able to embrace the life I really want. I distinctly remember thinking, "The man that I love doesn't love me anymore," and feeling the pain of that for all that it was, but then having a little lightbulb go off that asked, "Well, do YOU like you?" It was kind of the beginning of a journey for me.
Truthfully. I dont love him. I am addicted to him. Its weird to realize that. I stopped loving him a while ago but wanting to control him is a whole other matter.

I told the lawyer. I dont want to know. You do your job and I am living my life. Let me know when the court date is. I dont need a play by play of when he will be served etc. I have a life to live. No space in my head for the drama. Real life awats.
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