Congratulations Lulu! I echo the sentiments of Transform, as I too also faced my deepest fears of rejection and abandonment and didn't die. I also felt free after a while, knowing that what I feared the most really wasn't that bad. In fact, it made me a billion times stronger and way more able to embrace the life I really want. I distinctly remember thinking, "The man that I love doesn't love me anymore," and feeling the pain of that for all that it was, but then having a little lightbulb go off that asked, "Well, do YOU like you?" It was kind of the beginning of a journey for me.