I'm going to make a suggestion, and if you decide to try it, I'm pretty sure you'll understand why I suggested it.
See if YOU (singular) can find an OPEN 11th step (this one in particular) meeting through Alcoholics Anonymous. Open means anybody can go. Go, and see what happens, what you experience. You can sit in the back, and don't have to say a thing, just watch. They don't bite, they are quite amazing to be around, and I'll bet this meeting will change your whole outlook, from the things you experience.
Once you experience these things, you will have a LOT more clarity. You will see the difference between quitting drinking... and living.
It's an hour of your life, and a bit of scheduling and some gas. But it could make a huge difference, in your life, from what you see there.
CLMI