dreamstones

Hi all,

Well, AS received her 6 month coin a few weeks back. We've been talking a few times a week and are slowly rebuilding our relationship. We even had an extended family (aunts, uncles, cousins) shower/suprise party last weekend at a local restaurant/bar and she handled everything well. I did have two beers and at first felt weird drinking in front of her, but she and I talked about it and she said she had the problem, not me, and that she was fine.

I think she is doing well, taking it a day at a time, I pray that she stays the course and realizes there is a life without alcohol and she has a disease. I know she is still working through other issues that probably were part of her demons (she did rant the other night about one schmuck uncle every time we snuck outside for a smoke, she sometimes just doesn't know how to let sh*t go)

My trust level with her is much better, but there is always that bit of self doubt in the back of my head, knowing she has stayed sober for a while, then fell off the wagon, but this is the longest she has gone. Another factor, our Mom, who she still lives with, is heading on vacation next week for 8 days. It was a year ago that I went through hell with sis when Mom went to England for a month and I had to watch her almost kill herself again (see past posts on that hell, which we've all been through). I guess there is a part of me saying she can handle this, she is better equiped (active AA, a sponser, etc.). I also told her I'm there for her next week, that we can get together and do stuff. Then there is that part of me where she will feel alone, vulernable, and figure why not, why not a little drink, I can handle just one.

I'm not driving myself crazy about this, just having a few thoughts about it and if something did happen, which I pray won't, it's out of my control.

Thanks everyone for your past support and I hope that I can be there for all of you as well.

Peace to all.