My XA admitted he was an alcoholic in tears one night. He also said he drank to help him fall asleep.
Then after the admittance came the justifying...."but I cut out beer and only drink wine. But I cut out wine and only drink beer. But I drink a lot of water. I'm fine, I just need to detox and then I can control it."
It's sad, he said he wanted to stop. Inside he knows he should stop. But he places himself around the people who he knows he can drink and "be himself" around. So he said.