yeah, he admits it but follows it with "i do it cuz i cant sleep at night and the only way i get rest is to pass out"....so what you are saying makes sense to me.
i am starting to realize that analyzing the behavior is a never ending process. its drinking, depression, social issues, etc. it seems like one questions leads to 5 more. but i feel in order to defeat it, i need to understand it...if that makes sense.
your right...it is a rollar coaster ride. one that i am glad to be off of!