I totally agree with seeing a doctor and asking for help in getting thru the alcohol/hydrocodone withdrawal. Sometimes meds can be given for a short time to lessen the horrible anxiety of withdrawal. Please get medical help just to get safely and comfortably thru w/d. Then start working on a recovery program, whether AA/NA, or another program, or counseling, or whatever. Just work on your recovery every day, one day at a time, and you'll soon start feeling better.