Parenting myself
Hi!
I'm working on being an actor rather than a reactor.
I put up roomate signs at a couple of the clubs and some online free places.
1st three on line replies were from xabf! I did not reply.
I advertised for a clean & sober female preferred.
I'm trying to stop feeding my fear. I'm turning stuff around, when I think, this isn't going to work, I try to think the opposite, like... I'm a kind, good person, and the same kind of person is going to be a perfect roomate, who will rent from me, soon!
My home is safe and beautiful,and there's so much here( pools, sports, gym, etc and a sane person will reply to my ads.
This is taking much effort. Seriously, I feel defeated, simply because my natural way of looking at things is not the best for me.
I have heard fear described as false events appearing real. I agree. But I'm still scared.
So I am reaching out to my sr fam. Can someone please stop the squirrel cage in my mind that runs on fear? I need to focus on faith that I'm going to be ok. I guess my parenting skills are not so good, because I still want encouragement! I tell myself it's going to be ok, even better, yet fear and doubt still plague me.