I was just thinking, imagine one day when alcohol and drinking is not so widely accepted in society, how much easier life would be for everyone. How am I supposed to not think about alcohol when every second character on tv is drinking it/every celebration, it's there? It's just everywhere. And I rarely see stories about alcoholism in my favourite shows. I just want to be happy within myself without alcohol. I'm so smart in every aspect of my life, why can't I make the connection that alcohol is what is making me so unhappy in the first place???