Hi Hope - I can relate to your post. (I've got about the same number of days sober and my spiritual program isn't mainstream either). Right now, I can say that I spend at least as much time thinking about not drinking as I did drinking. I'm spending probably 2-3 hours or more on SR every day. But things really are slowly improving and changing. I'm starting to exercise, get more work done, do things with my daughters, etc.
Being more of the eastern spirituality, perhaps
not resisting (accepting, being the observer, etc) would be one way to go. Also, think of it as a positive, rather than negative obsession.... turn that thought of "not drinking" into a thought of embracing a new sober life......
I'm just fishing here, but I had to respond, since we have some things in common.
