Wish you well Dub. I know you have made progress and you continue to post even though you haven't gotten to the place you want to be. You are driven and I admire your determination to get sober. It took me many years of trying and going back, cutting back and then hitting those all day benders, etc.
I know you kept posting because it is in you to get sober but only you can do that. You know you have SR here for tons of support.
I look forward to your continued posts and sending good vibes for you to stay strong and sober. You can do it friend!!
Huggs.