Thanks dgillz,
I am willing to do whatever it takes. Listen, take suggestions, go to meetings, get a sponsor, work the steps, stop being so stubborn, admit to myself that I truly am an alcoholic and that my life is vERY unmanageable.
Those are just a few of the things that I know I need to do. However I also 'know' that I don't 'know' a thing about how to do this. So I'm ready to let others who have gone before me help me and do my part.
I hope I'm on the right track - for today, I am not going to drink and that feels good.