Thanks everyone.
Since being gone, I have been going to Al Anon weekly and have a sponsor.
I filed for divorce in Nov from my AH. He never even bothered to respond to the paperwork. He still lives in the house and refuses to leave.
His drinking is again, out of control and I can't afford to support our house and an apt. on my income. But, I think for my sanity and my kids' sanity, I will be moving out in July. Haven't figured out the financials yet, but it is just getting too hard.