Hi and Welcome,
If your feeling that bad, I would consider your situation pretty serious.
May I ask what type of methods you have tried to quit during that time?
I was in your shoes just a week ago, honeslty thinking exactly the same thing, and a week later I have HOPE, a lot of it, for the first time in over 10 years)
Since you have been an alcoholic, for so long, have you spoken to a Dr. of any sort yet, to get their opinion?
I wish you the best and understand, but there is hope, please dont give up.
<3 Dream