I remember sitting in AA meetings always feeling like one of the "strugglers" - likening myself to the one or two others who were having a bad time and always relapsing.
Then one night, I found myself listening to one of them talk and really feeling for them, thanking whoever that I was not like that any more.... Eh? Then it hit me. I seemed to have crossed some line between struggling and recovering - and I didn't even notice. Kind of sneaked up on for no eother reason than I kept doing what I had to do - ie not drinking a day at a time. It was a good feeling/realisation and I am sure you can get it too. Just keep at it and don't be too hard on yourself.
So glad that we have this place to talk - I know it's a big part of my recovery and wouldn't be without it.
Stu.