Just Breath...
Ok I am kind of freaking out now. I am trying to stay occupied but I feel very anxious and paranoid. My washing machine and TV broke today, I know drinking wont fix them, but it would make me feel better but I am not going to do that.
My license is suspended I found out yesterday b/c I forgot to pay 1 speeding ticket, that had a late fee and not its suspended. I have only been driving to meetings.
I feel like now I am trying to get everything together and haven't drank in 3 days and now everything is falling apart, literally.
Thank God I have this computer or I would really be freaking out, cant drive, no tv, cant do laundry, have no job b/c I quit when i was finishing out my "bottom" I used to be the "bread winner" and hold everything together.
My husband has been doing that for a while now since I got really messed up, now Im trying to fix things and they seem worse then ever.
I am not going to drink though I really want to. NOW!
<3 Dream