You guys sure know how to get me crying (you all heard me!! - its so nice) Didnt actually care that I was feeling sorry for myself - I needed it. So often I bottle it all up and dont say too much. Even now _ I just want to call my mother and say 'can we have a good talk' but I cant even get myself to do it because I know the emotions will come out and that scares me. Dont like showing emotions to anyone.
Im going to try and take some advice though and wrap it all up. I mean, start looking at me for a change, what I need to live peacefully. My biggest problem is 'forgiving' the ones I love right now as I dont know whether I can forgive them without leaving them. Its like if Im around them Im saying - its ok and Im not sure how to say its not. Right, Im not as strong as I think, need to be ok with saying whats on my mind and accept that if I upset someone, thats ok too.