I found it similar to someone turning the lights on in a room that you have only ever seen dark/half lit. Some things are like you thought they were and other things were completely different/scary.
It takes time to adjust to your new surrounding both in the outside world & your inner self. I am still adjusting but I prefer the lights on as much as there are things I would rather not deal with/see.
All of the best in your recovery, its worth it.
Take Care,
NB
