Oh, dear Jo, when us, so called "strong ones" just want to sag limply for a while, it shocks us completely, doesn't it. I thought I had lost myself.....where, did that woman I thought I was, disappear too, and who is this wimpy, snivelling, scrunched up old lady looking back from my mirror?
From being positive and forward looking, to negative, miserable and afraid to look behind or ahead of us.
Took me a while before I told my GP how I felt, and she was wonderful. Not just given anti-depressants but helpful advice, loving support and therapy.
Take all the courage you can muster and tell your GP what you really feel like, and get help ASAP. Not doing anything just adds to the misery, prolongs it's lifespan and hurts you even more.
God bless