after many years of trying--i think what has finally done it for me was just the complete self hate, shame and embarressment of who i had become. i was living a lie. i was a lie. and i finally found a way to be brutally honest with myself.
my motivation is trying to live a life i am proud of, that i actually want to be living--life is just too short to waste another minute pretending to be happy--i want to REALLY be happy
good luck
