It was extremly important to avoid all situations that would trigger me. I know I just wasn't strong enough to resist the temptations, as it was so ingrained in me, grab a beer, slam a few, get drunk. When we first get sober it can be overwhelming to constantly remind ourselves, we just can't drink. No matter what! Do whatever it takes! Make those meetings, stay in the company of AA friends. Our brain, and body is learning to re-program out of these habits. I'd be at the table and grab thin air, thinking a beer can was there! Crazy! You'll get the hang of changing those behaviors, if this is what you really want, you'll be okay!