Revelations!
Hi,
This morning I woke up thinking about a guy I dated a long time ago who goes through dramatic events frequently. This got me thinking about the other men who are like that inlcuding my exA. My feelings about the former relationship are very accepting. Nothing harsh or resentful. It was what it was. Then, I thought why the hell can't I have that same peace about the exA relationship? I am getting there, but why is it taking so long?
(Lightbulb!) The exA cheated on me and I was the one who felt sleazy. The exA lied and I felt dishonest and embarrassed. The exA did and said bizarre things and I felt crazy. WTF? Why do I feeling emotions based on HIS behavior? I did not have that same dynamic with the former guy. Okay, this is a revelation to me out of the blue.