Good for you that you vented Kim! That was an important step to take. Don't isolate in your pity party, go ahead and invite people! We feel for ya. A lot is going on in your life, and you are sober, and will be able to feel your feelings now, instead of making everything worse by trying to drown them in alcohol, and then waking up feeling even worse. Yuck.
Every day that you stay sober, you are stronger and healthier. Ask your HP for help and guidance. You are a beloved child of God. You are sober! So take it easy. One day at a time.
Love,
Soph