Wow...the timing on this one! Thank you lightseeker for sharing that.
I was just sitting with my Mother sobbing like a 4 year old about the WHY of it all! WHY do I keep doing this to myself? WHY do I let myself go into the Hole? WHY do I place more stock in how other people are responding to me than the reality of how I really feel about them? WHY do I keep doubting all of the decisions that I make? WHY do I not feel like I am ever good enough?
....and where does it all come from? That is the journey of discovery that I am on at the moment. Trying to focus on where it all started with me...well, I know NOW where it started...I just need to work on reprogramming.
Thanks for sharing that...it is so nice to know that you are not alone.
Here's to climbing on out of The Hole!!!!!! Onward and upward.