Welcome to SR Nancy,
My feeling is that with or without you attending AA, if you come here and post,
and truly want to quit drinking above everything else; I think you'll find this site as helpful, if not waaaay more helpful than your experience this past year.
Have you tried other avenues ?, like counseling , .....look around this site and you will find plenty of alternatives to AA. I'm not an AA critic because I find f2f help both useful and dynamic for my recovery, but it's definitely not all I do.
I hope you'll find this site as helpful as I have these past 5 weeks.