Hi Nancy
When I read your post, It reminded me of my sister. Your words were exactly hers.
All of these things that you cant stand, - is it your denial to admit that you just may be an alcoholic?
When my sister was saying exactly those things to me, it was because she just couldnt admit she was an alcoholic at the time. You know, different to all the rest, sick of hearing about it. She sat in the background wondering why she was there and that was because she just couldnt wait to get home for that next drink. She just wasnt ready for recovery.
I am not having a go at you, I am just telling my experience.
Alcohol eventually killed her because her addiction to alcohol became too great and in the end she just couldnt even get to a meeting.
Wishing you all the best. You can go into the chat rooms and talk to people who really understand you.